Alpha's Remorse After Her Death (Amber and Julian) novel Chapter 118

Chapter 118

Julian’s POV

Watching Chase drive off with Amber made something shrivel inside of my soul. I was furious, but not in a way that I could act on. Instead that anger stayed within me, coiling around my mood and turning it

darker.

Even resting on the floor, I had felt a peace last night that I hadn’t experienced in years.

Not since the last time I had slept beside Amber.

Even from the floor, with her on the bed, her closeness gave me comfort I had long been denied.

Gods, I had missed her.

That yearning would continue, it seemed, perhaps indefinitely. Or at least until after Chase was done

with her.

I had tried to warn her against him. Again and again. Why would she get in that car with him?

When she had come in here last night, she had been filled with passionate anger. She’d been furious that I had risked our reconnection by allowing Olivia into my hotel room.

That anger had sparked a hope in me. If she was angry, she had to care about me, about our relationship, about our future. About all that I’d risked for a perceived hookup.

She didn’t understand that Olivia and I were only acting friendly. I supposed I wouldn’t either, if our situations had been reversed. Especially given what happened the last time I had been drinking with

Olivia.

I looked over at the desk where the bottle of wine and the glass Amber had emptied were sitting. Olivia’s glass was half empty, resting on the windowsill.

Walking over to it, I lifted the glass. There was the barest drop at the bottom. Swirling it around, I noticed how chalky it seemed. Lowering the glass, I picked up the bottle instead.

This wasn’t a cheap bottle of wine. There should have been no chalkiness. Unless this was a bad batch? That could have been why Amber didn’t handle it well.

She said she usually handled her alcohol better than this.

Two rum shots and a glass of wine in such a short amount of time would have likely made her sick. But drunk enough to black out?

And then, there was that strange behavior she showed before she passed out. In an effort to contain my libido while she was still here, I had pushed those moments to the back of my mind, but they were coming forward with a vengeance now.

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She’d been so hot, so seductive, pressing her body against me. Rubbing her breasts on my chest while trying to hook one leg around me.

And that look in her eyes… There was a fire in those depths, one I’d seen before long ago.

During our marriage, Amber and I had a lot of problems. Sex wasn’t one of them. We burned for each other, near constantly. The flame I saw last night was the same one I had seen in the past.

It could have been all the alcohol removing her inhibitions, in which case, it was nice to know she still wanted me, even if she hid it under the surface.

But… I looked at the bottle again.

There was some similarities between what happened last night and what happened the night I had inadvertently had that one night stand with Olivia. Just as Amber couldn’t remember last night, I couldn’t

remember that night.

Sometimes I wondered…

No. It made no difference now. What was in the past was in the past. The child Olivia and I had created that night was lost. It would be something of a dishonor to their memory to question things now,

wouldn’t it?

Ug.

I placed down the bottle and turned away.

One thing I knew for sure. I would not be drinking with Olivia ever again. Not even to see Amber jealous. Though I had enjoyed her signs of caring for me, it wasn’t worth the fallout.

Still, Amber’s last words before passing out stayed with me, and would likely forever, even if she never

remembered them.

I don’t want to share you…

Amber’s POV

“I don’t do one–night stands,” I told Chase,

“So you are seeing Julian?” Chase asked.

“No,” I said firmly, frustration spiking. “We didn’t have sex.”

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