Alpha's Remorse After Her Death (Amber and Julian) novel Chapter 81

Chapter 81

Amber’s POV

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I was frightened of what Julian knowing the truth might mean for Alice and for our future. Yet, in this

moment, seeing Julian and Alice hug filled me with nothing but pleased, joyful feelings.

My daughter should be praised, she should be loved and acknowledged by her father. For so long, I had

thought he would simply reject her if he knew the truth, cast her aside as he had cast me aside, or keep

her to the shadows.

Now, I could see that his affection for Alice was genuine.

There was much to talk about, much that could yet go wrong. But knowing he accepted her lifted a lead weight that I had carried in the pit of my stomach since he had focused on Olivia instead of me, since I boarded that plane, since I decided to start a new life elsewhere.

When their hug was done, Julian stood once more. He looked at me and a long moment passed where we just looked at each other. I didn’t know what to say, my insides a torrent of emotion. He didn’t say

anything either, at least not until he gestured to the table.

“Please,” he said. “Sit.”

Julian sat down on the far side. Taking Alice’s hand, I made her sit in the booth across the table facing

his. Alice tugged on my arm, clearly wanting to sit with Julian, but I needed her beside me right now.

There were too many uncertainties here. While I was pleased they were getting along, now that the hug was done, my fears were starting to bubble up within me.

If I let them sit together, would he just take her and run? I couldn’t chance it.

Alice frowned at me, but ultimately obeyed without too much fuss. Her excitement made her more

easygoing than usual.

“So, Alice,” Julian said. “How is school going? Are you making many friends here?”

“I’m making a ton of friends!” she said, then started to list some of them on her fingers. “I’ve never had so many friends before…”

Julian smiled, though his brow pulled together somewhat with worry. “I’m sure you had friends in my pack…”

Alice shrugged. “Not really. Some, I guess. But everyone was afraid of me…” Instinctively, she reached up and touched her necklace. Her expression dimmed.

“Why would they be afraid?” Julian asked.

“What should we have to eat?” I asked brightly, distracting Alice from the question. “I’ve heard they have

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a really good chicken sandwich here. What do you think, Alice? Do you want chicken?”

“Maybe chicken fingers…” she said, her features brightening again.

Julian lifted his gaze from Alice to me, but I pretended not to notice. He had to have questions about this, about why the other kids would be afraid of Alice.

He’d only just learned he was Alice’s father. I didn’t know how I felt about revealing her condition to him, especially now that we had the necklace to counter it. It wasn’t a permanent solution of course but it did

stop her shifting for now.

Julian hadn’t been there to watch her suffer. He didn’t know what it was like to feel the fear and anguish,

watching your child feel pain.

It was such a big burden to bear. I didn’t know if I could trust him to carry it.

For the rest of the meal, Julian avoided that conversation, instead asking Alice questions about her favorite subjects, her favorite books and shows, and about other things she liked to do. Alice engaged

eagerly and the two seemed to be getting along.

Occasionally, Alice would look over at me, and I would smile encouragingly.

As nervous as I was about this entire thing, I wanted the two to get along. It wasn’t as if I didn’t want my

daughter to have her father. It was more… I didn’t trust him to be good for her.

Yet here he was, proving me wrong.

I wasn’t ready to relax just yet though, knowing things could still take a turn. I had many fears about this situation that had yet to be relieved. Those weren’t things for Alice to be afraid of though.

After dinner, we walked to the nearby park. Recognizing some children from school, Alice ran ahead to

play with them on the slides and swings.

Julian and I found a bench. He gestured for me to sit first. Once I had, he took the spot beside me. Together we watched Alice play. We were silent for a while, before Julian spoke up.

“I’m glad you agreed to this,” Julian said.

“Alice is already fond of you,” I said. “She heard on her own that you were in town. I couldn’t keep her away even if I had tried.”

He smiled, and it was dazzling. He was such a handsome man, and fatherhood looked good on him.

“I’m glad,” he said. “That will make things easier in the months to come.”

Immediately, I tensed. Was this the part I feared finally happening? “What do you mean?”

“I’m planning on personally working with you on this project, Amber. I think we should travel to various

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packs together to help the less fortunate children. We’ll bring Alice, of course.”

The project would call for some travel. That he wanted to personally help did speak to his generosity and

leadership.

But that didn’t sit right with me. He was talking about the next handful of months. I was waiting to hear

what his plans were like for after that.

I planned on staying here. I liked my little clinic and Alice loved the school and her friends. But we weren’t close to Julian’s Thorn pack. It wouldn’t be an easy commute for him to visit with his daughter.

I was sure we could make it work though. Alice could go there on the weekends, or Julian could come here. There wasn’t any need to fully uproot either of our lives.

Fear lobbed up in my throat, I asked, “And then..?”

I was playing with fire, asking that question. Maybe it was better not to know. But I couldn’t play pretend now, like I might have done in the past, convincing myself that everything would work out. I had Alice to look out for now. It wasn’t just my heart on the line anymore.

“Then,” he said, and looked back at Alice, who was at this moment sliding down the big slide in the

center of the playground. “Alice can come back to Thom pack and we can announce her as my official daughter and heir.”

The blood drained from my face. “I’d prefer if Alice and I stayed here.”

Julian huffed a breath, as if the notion was ridiculous. “I am the Alpha, Amber. She would have the best

life in my pack under my care.”

The fears I had held amplified until they now swallowed me entirely whole.

This was what Anna had warned about. This was what I had been afraid of most, second only to worries

he would totally reject Alice.

He wanted to take Alice away from me.

At my stunned silence, Julian looked at me. “What’s wrong?”

I didn’t even know where to begin!

Yet at that moment, Alice ran up to us. Giggling, she said, “My friends say you look like a couple. So when are you going to get married?”

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