My Alphas' Dark Desires novel Chapter 87

Chapter 87: Choose Me

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Chapter 87

~Valerie’s POV~

It wasn’t like with Dristan—hesitant, sweet, like he wasn’t sure he deserved it and still filled with fire.

Or Xade, who was raw and hungry, yet sweet.

No, this was fire and raw hunger laced with gentle seduction. Axel kissed me like I was his.

My fingers clutched him like he was the only thing keeping me from collapsing.

My head spun, heat building beneath my skin. His scent flooded my senses—spice and earth and something darker—and my control slipped.

Astra surged and I fought to gain control.

Her voice echoed in my skull, purring. "Let go, Valerie. Let me have this. Just once."

"No," I growled internally, even as my body leaned in, even as Axel’s hand moved up my side and his lips claimed mine deeper. "No, Astra, stop—"

But she clawed harder, pushing me to give in, dragging my resistance to the edge of a cliff and threatening to shove it over.

And I almost lost completely, letting her win until we sensed it.

A subtle presence—barely there but close.

A prickling sensation ran down my spine, like the air had shifted, like I was no longer alone with him.

"Someone’s watching."

My comment had made Astra freeze mid-kiss, my lips still parted beneath Axel’s. I took hold of that moment and jerked back to focus.

My mind spun with the possibility of who it could have been.

Although it was faint and distant, it was there. I didn’t know if it was Dristan, or Xade, or maybe someone else entirely—but I could feel eyes on me before it totally disappeared.

My heart stuttered.

That awareness was like a slap. A cold jolt through the fog Astra had pulled over me.

No. Not like this. Not when I don’t even know who’s out there watching. Not when this isn’t all me.

I clenched my fists and yanked myself back—mentally and physically. My grip on Astra snapped tight, shoving her down into silence.

Her frustrated growl echoed in my skull, but I didn’t care. My mouth broke from Axel’s. I sucked in a breath like I’d been underwater.

"Valerie?" Axel’s voice was low, confused, still laced with heat. He tried to follow, to close the distance again as his hand reached for my cheek to caress it, but I held up a hand, pressing it against his chest. "No."

Axel stilled. "What—"

"I can’t," I breathed, my voice trembling even though I tried to keep it steady. "Not now."

His brows furrowed. "Why?"

"I need to be in control of myself. Not her." I tapped my temple lightly.

He grinned—damn him—like I’d said something amusing. "You didn’t give me answers." And he leaned closer again, his lips brushing my temple this time. "You gave me confirmation."

"I know you," I snapped, though my heart was still slamming in my chest, still aching from the kiss we’d shared. "You like control. You like knowing where the pieces on the board are. And right now, I’m a piece you can’t predict."

His expression shuttered slightly. A flicker of something cold passed through his eyes before he schooled it back into that calm, cocky exterior.

"I never wanted to control you," he said after a pause. "I just wanted you to choose, and hopefully you chose me. I’m a better kisser."

My lips parted, but no words came. I hadn’t chosen. Not really. Not between any of them.

Still, I had enjoyed a kiss from three of them. I glanced away, shame and guilt swirling in my chest like a stormcloud I didn’t know how to escape.

"Then stop cornering me like I already did."

Silence fell between us before Axel stepped back finally, giving me space, though the warmth of his body lingered for some seconds.

I crossed my arms and bit the inside of my cheek to keep Astra silent.

"I’m going back." I did not need his approval. It was final, and my feet instantly turned.

"Valerie," Axel called behind me. His voice was softer now. Almost... unsure. I paused but didn’t look back.

"I’m not sorry," he said. "For kissing you. But I’ll wait. Even if it kills me."

I didn’t answer. I just walked.

He didn’t stop me this time, but with every step away from him, I could still feel the burn of his kiss tingling my lips.

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