Wild Nights With My Brother's Ex-Best Friend novel Chapter 41

Chapter 41

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It’s been a few weeks since that phone call.

Yes, time is flying. I feel even more idiotic than I did before. And I’m still pregnant.

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I have to decide whether or not I’m going to keep the baby. I can’t make a decision that will impact my whole life. And it isn’t just me I’m thinking about-this baby deserves so much more than I can give it.

I would’ve considered adoption if I weren’t so terrified of what I read in the news and on social media platforms all the time. about the abuse children suffer in foster homes. I can’t bear the thought of a stranger hurting my child. It brings tears to my

eyes.

I’m seriously considering keeping the baby, even if it’ll be raised in a broken home by a mother with mistakes big enough to fill the Atlantic Ocean. Maybe by then, I’ll be changed. A better, stable person. Someone worthy of the title ‘mom!

I don’t know. I’m so torn and confused.

It would’ve been so much easier if I had Mason in my corner. He would’ve given me the perfect advice, and I would’ve known what to do. But after the things he told me, I realized that he’d probably never forgive me.

And he’s right. Who would want a shit person like me as a sibling? I’ve disappointed him in every way possible. Hell, I broke his trust, and his heart, too.

My thoughts are interrupted by Sebastian knocking on my table. I look up quickly and find him staring at me with an amused look on his face. “Everything okay?”

I tuck my hair behind my ear, feeling awkward that I was caught daydreaming on the job. “Yeah, I’m sorry. Did you say something I didn’t catch?”

“Yeah. I was just wondering if you remembered the event we’d be going to tonight. The whole office was invited.”

“Yes, yes,” I answer quickly. Why is he reminding me? Did he think I would forget? Oh my, am I known as the office’s airhead? “I’ll be there.”

“I was wondering if you needed a ride. I could take you.”

“Oh, I’ll be there,” I reveal. He sent us the invitation some days ago, so I’ll be able to slip in with no problem at all. “Thanks for offering.

“No problem,” he smiles warmly. “Let me know if you need anything.”

He enters his office and closes the door. I return to my work and try not to think about all the terrible things that have happened to me.

I’m tired of it all. All these thoughts run through my mind like a mental diarrhea. Unstoppable. Nasty, Leaving a burning sensation in the back of my mind.

I wish I could shut all these thoughts down and not have to think about anyone ever again. That’s the reason why I just isolated myself from the world. It wasn’t just a fear of judgment. I’ve never been good at coping with the things that make me upset. I’ll think about them until I wear them down to the point where they just vanish.

The day comes to an end, and I go to my shitty motel and get ready for the gala. I already bought a nice, scented dress I could use. It’s black and quite professional. As I put it on, I can’t stop myself from running my hands down my front. My

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belly is still flat, but what happens once I start to show?

What will I do then?

I leave the motel and drive to the venue, even though I’m a little bit early.

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This is all an attempt to get away from my thoughts and the sad reality I’m living. I’m always trying to do something to avoid thinking about things.

I manage to find a parking spot because I’m early, which is an unexpected advantage, and then I step out of the car. I’m pleased to see a few people standing in front of the venue. At least I’m not so early to the point where it would be ridiculous.

I near the line, and I notice Sebastian standing right up front. He’s alone, so I have no problem approaching him. When he spots me, a smile lights up his face. “Nicole! I wasn’t expecting to see you here this early.”

“Yeah, I decided to come earlier and…” He’s watching me so intently that I lose my train of thought. “Never mind. I just showed up. I didn’t really think things through.”

This gala we’re attending as a company is a fundraising one. Maybe that’s why I was so eager to get away from the motel. I didn’t want to think about it too much because then I would have to confront the fact that my life is just so empty now, even though I have a job and Sebastian is an amazing boss.

I can’t help but think of me-so optimistic. Trying too hard to keep Wings of Grace standing despite what the people around me thought.

I miss the person I was. What happened to her? Did Roman Hayes kill her completely?

“Well, I’m glad you’re here in any case,” Sebastian remarks. Despite the lightness in his voice, I can’t help but notice how concerned he sounds.

Gosh. Do I look and sound as crazy as I feel?

We enter the venue and walk around while talking. Sebastian says, “This is actually the first time I’ve attended something like this. Fundraisers….they’re not really my thing.”

“Why’s that?” I ask curiously.

Sebastian shrugs. “I don’t know. I guess I’ve never really believed in them until a few weeks ago.”

“What happened then?”

Sebastian gives me a look. It’s full of mischief. “I was speaking to Katie and…well, she told me just how much your charity helped her when she was sick

I ask myself if he knows about her diagnosis. By the sound of it, he doesn’t, so I knew it to myself because it’s not my place

to well him.

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