Chosen just to be Rejected (by Jennifer Francis) novel Chapter 119

Parker He needed a moment to pull himself together , and he knew it .

Letting go of her once more was going to kill him all over again .

He didnt even know if he could truly do it this time .

Didnt bloody want to and he knew it .

He got all of a dozen steps out of that room and came to a halt .

He had to put a hand on the wall to keep himself upright as pain was starting to tear at his chest as he thought about letting her go .

She wasnt even his , and it hurt to blazes just thinking about letting her go .

Alpha ? Annettes voice cut through his pain questioningly , as she stood before him concern , not only in her words but in her expression as well .

Ill be fine , just … how did he explain something he couldnt even understand himself ? Belladonnas gotten a wolf , is healing her , he told her .

You should go and check on her .

I will , but Alpha , what is wrong with you ? she reached out to touch him .

You look as though youre in pain .

She was frowning at him and there was real concern in her now , as he struggled with how he was feeling .

Its nothing .

Dont concern yourself with me .

Just focus on Belladonna please .

He murmured and pushed himself up off the wall , tried to rein in his pain .

Excuse me Annette , I have pack related things that need my attention .

He told her and walked away from her though he could feel her eyes were on him .

He , however , was the Alpha of the pack , and she couldnt hound him or dismiss his words , about focusing on Belladonna either .

He headed for the packhouse , and his office .

He needed something to occupy his mind to take his and Vexs minds off of what felt ; like their heart breaking all over again .

He walked into his office , to find all of his unit in there and Shannon shot to his feet at the sight of him .

Whats wrong Parker ? he asked instantly .

Nothing is wrong , he stated , and walked over to his desk and shooed Kane from it .

Bullshit , if you think I cant feel that , what youre feeling right this very minute , youd be dead wrong Parker … Youre in pain , a lot of it .

Shannon told him , as he walked across the room to where Parker now sat You might be pulling on your bloodline , but that isnt going to stop my instincts as a Gamma , nothing gets past me .

His Gamma was staring down at him now , unhappy it seemed that Parker was trying to avoid the topic .

110 Leave it alone Shannon .

Its for me to deal with , he stated .

Coming into this office , he knew work could save him , distract him and so that was what he was going to do .

There was always a lot of work to do inside his pack , and he could turn to it , in order to feel nothing or try to bury himself to the point of feeling nothing at all .

That was actually something he was very good at doing .

How was he to explain how he felt to anyone , even Shannon , when he couldnt event understand it himself , he didnt even know where to begin , wouldnt even know how to start that conversation .

Shut the door , Shannon stated and put a hand on Parker , and he felt him roll that Gamma Charm over him .

Parker sighed and looked up at his friend and Gamma .

Yes , you do , Shannon stated .

Youre not only in pain , but very confused as well , and you werent like this last night when I saw you .

he sighed himself and then that southern accent rolled right out of him .

Tell me Parker , what happened .

His head tilted slightly to the right Or think about it , something has changed between last night and now , your visit just now with Bella … focus on that .

Parker could feel his thoughts were being redirected by his own Gamma , because he was using that Charm on him , trying to get to the bottom of how Parker himself felt , why he suddenly felt that way even .

Parker could see it in his mind , as clear as day , Belladonna on the floor as hed walked into the room , her eyes a mixture of her blue and the brilliant blue of her wolf , then theyd been all brilliant blue as Venus had taken control of her .