From Substitute To Queen novel Chapter 204

Chapter 204

Just as I was about to check her wounds, this strange green mist appeared out of nowhere?

I thought it was some new Rogue weapon, but there was no time to escape.

He pressed his fingers against his temples. “That gas… it made me start hallucinating

“Everything I saw began to twist and distort. I couldn’t tell enemy from friend.”

My mind completely lost control. It was like… like 1 wasn’t myself anymore.”

His voice became increasingly tortured. I have some fragmented memories.”

He avoided my gaze. I remember swinging my dagger, cutting and slashing

I killed more Rogues… but under the influence of that gas…

His voice dropped to almost a whisper, ‘I couldn’t tell who was the enemy, who was…”

“Then I passed out too,”

Caelan stared at his hands as if he could still see blood on them. “When I woke up, I found myself holding that dazzer

“Isabella was lying beside me, wounded much worse than before,”

His voice trembled. “I knew… I knew I had done it, but that wasn’t the real me.”

Caelan stood up and began pacing the room, running his fingers through his hair.

“Sabi, you have to understand-that wasn’t me! That wasn’t the real me!”

“The gas made me completely lose my mind. I couldn’t distinguish between friend and foe.”

“I went there to save her. I would never intentionally hurt Isabella.”

“She’s your mother. She’s a good person. How could I possibly…”

“That gas must have been a new Rogue weapon, designed to make us turn on each other.”

“They wanted us to kill our own people, and I… I fell into their trap.”

He stopped pacing and turned to face me, “I know this sounds like an excuse.”

I know that no matter how I explain it, the facts won’t change,”

“But Sabi, I swear, if I had been conscious…”

“When I realized what I had done, when I saw her lying there…”

His hands shook. “I wanted to save her, but I was terrified of losing control again.”

“I was afraid the gas was still in my system, afraid I might hurt her again.”

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“Right then, I heard footsteps and shouting.”

“It was your father. He was bringing others, heading straight for us.”

He turned his back to me. “I knew if they saw all this…”

“They would never believe I had been controlled by gas.”

I studied every detail of Caelan’s expressions and body language carefully.

If you were really controlled by gas, why do you still have memories?”

My eyes held doubt. “Or are you saying you were fully aware of what you were doing?”

“Sabi…” His face went through several conflicting emotions.

“I remember fragments, but those memories feel like nightmares-all blurry and unclear.”

“I can’t be sure if those memories are real or just hallucinations.”

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He met my eyes with a mixture of fear and desperation. “And I’ve been investigating this incident all these years, trying to find the

truth.”

“Have you found any evidence after all this time?”

“Why do you always change the subject whenever I bring up Mom’s death?”

My voice grew colder. “Or was killing those Rogues intentional, and killing my mother intentional too?”

Tears began forming in my eyes.

“You’ve been lying to me from day one.”

“All the tenderness, all the care-it was all to cover up your crime.”

Caelan saw the look in my eyes and knew I was starting to doubt his story.

“Sabi, it’s not like that. You misunderstood.”

‘I really… I really don’t know for certain what happened then. If I had been conscious when I killed someone, I would have turned myself in.”

His voice grew panicked, “I would never intentionally hurt Isabella! I had no reason to kill Isabella!”

Caelan stepped forward, trying to embrace me, but I pushed him away hard,

‘Don’t touch me!’

I backed away slowly until I was pressed against the wall. “Now I understand.”

“So… all these years, your kindness toward me…”

I took a deep breath, fighting to control my emotions. “Ever since Mom died, your attitude toward me changed from cold indifference to caring. You cooked for me, helped me with homework, looked after me in every way.”

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“This was all because of guilt. Because you killed my mother.”

Tears streamed down my face as I slowly slid down the wall to sit on the floor. “You don’t love me at all.”

“You’re just using me to ease your guilt.”

I covered my stomach. “My child… how am I supposed to face my child?”

“How do I tell her that her father killed her grandmother?”

“You married me not out of love, but out of guilt.”

My eyes filled with tears. “You made me believe a lie. You made me fall in love with a murderer.”

When Caelan tried to approach me, I looked up at him with fierce eyes. “Don’t you dare touch me!”

Caelan stopped where he was, his hands hanging helplessly at his sides. “Sabi, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”

“At first… yes, it was because of guilt.”

“I felt like I had done something terrible, felt like I should make it up to you and your family.”

But his eyes couldn’t meet mine directly.

“But as time went on, when I really started to know you…”

“Your kindness, your strength, you made me forget the shadows of the past.”

“I found myself truly falling in love with you, Sabi.”

“Not guilt anymore, but real, genuine love.”

“You made me a better person. You made me want to forget those painful memories.”

He tried to step closer. “Our child, our future-all of this is real.”

I suddenly cried out in pain, clutching my stomach. “Ah…!!!”

Caelan immediately rushed over, dropping to his knees beside me. “Sabi, what’s wrong? Are you having abdominal pain?”

1 shoved him away, sweat breaking out on my forehead. “You… don’t touch me! Don’t touch me or my baby! Get away!”

Caelan’s eyes filled with tears. Tm sorry, Sabi. You can hit me, you can curse me, but please don’t hurt yourself and the baby. Please, let me call a doctor for you.”

I endured the sharp pain in my abdomen and struggled to my feet. I knew it was just the baby moving because of my emotional distress. I walked to the coffee table in our bedroom and picked up the fruit knite from the arrangement there, then held it to my

throat.

‘I want a divorce. I want to sever our mate bond.

Caelan’s eyes went wide. ‘Sabi! What are you doing?! Put the knife down-it’s too dangerous!

“Don’t come any closer! Sever our mate bond right now.”

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